WARNING: ITT: Music, pictures, rants, drama, and..

[Chaos]

...many random things that no one should take seriously!

Alright, let's get this topic start off in the right mood!


No wait, I'm Catholic, that won't work... ah screw it.

(NOTICE: I'm not a part of some group that worships her as god. Honest. Though she is kinda cute... bah!)

I really have no idea why I'm posting this. I guess I'm just bored... or something. Life is awfully boring. Every day it's the same old thing (And one day closer till Smash Bros Brawl, but that's besides the point, cause even that'll get old eventually), and I'm getting kinda annoyed. I just wish something different would happen, rather than the same wake up-go to school-come home from school-try to find something to do-sleep process that goes on every day of my life.

I need to find new IRL friends. The ones I have are extremely close minded and never understand anything I'm talking about.

That's another thing, what the hell is with the general American populace being so close minded? (NOTICE: I'm not trying to come out of the closet, guys. Srsly) I never understood how one can be so disapprovant (Made up word) of another's likes and dislikes. I love anime and manga. I love things that come from Japan. I enjoy playing video games and the like. I wouldn't dare let anyone know, though, for the risk of being made into even more of an outsider than I already am. I have to follow and agree with everyones opinion that's forced upon me as fact. I have to like football (Okay, I really do like football, but that's besides the point.) I have to obsess over Halo. I have to strive to have the perfect body. I have to pretend to be who I'm not. It's just all getting really annoying and I wish I could just tell everyone what I like and don't like and not change anyone's opinion of me.

You know, I just typed all that up, and now I realize that didn't make much sense... *sigh*

Music break: media.putfile.com/Hare-Hare-Yukai-ver-Kyon

No, too slow... media.putfile.com/Hare-Hare-Yukai-Original

I guess that's better

(I'm just gonna remove that picture))
(NOTICE: That picture has nothing to do with anything.)

Anime. I've been watching a lot of it recently, and if you haven't noticed (then where the hell have you been?), I've become a rather devoted fan of The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. It's one of my favorite animes ever. The characters are great and the plot is a nice, refreshing change from all the crap I've been watching lately. Plus, the music really cheers me up, which is always a plus. I'd reccommend it to anyone who hasn't seen it yet. It's only 13 episodes long, but they're broadcast out of order, so it might be a little hard to get them right. The english ones are in order though, if you can find a site that has them. Actually, I have a site that has them for download, but if you really want it, you can just ask me >_>

School. School sucks. End of story.

The Writer's Strike. This is pissing me off. I'm really, really, really happy they started showing new episodes of and . However, the shows just don't hold the same charm they used to have when the writers were working. that being said, I still love and .
(NOTICE: That may have sounded a little weird. Let me re-state that I'm not turning gay >_> I'm just using the pictures to make it so the topic seems at least a little more interesting)

Football. We won the State Championship in our division this year, which is pretty cool. I'm practically being forced to play the sport next year, though, so I'm not really looking forward to that. I guess it would be more fun if I actually got some play time in games... but I digress.

Super Smash Bros Brawl. Oh my GOD I can't wait to play this game. Too bad Nintendo's toying with me and they keep delaying it

I guess I feel a little better now... sorry you had to trudge through that mess of a topic. I guess I'll leave you with a little (possibly unwanted) present.

Actually, I was gonna post another Haruhi-related item here, but I'd figured you guys have had enough already >_>

[infieri]

I love you Nick.
I'm glad you're not gay. ohohhohoh.
OR ACTUALLY....
Hmmm? :]

Bah. The funny thing is that I've been TRYING to get INTO anime XD I want to be the president of the anime club next year, but I'm so out of touch with anime...
I need to watch Melancholy. I've stareted to memorize the dance, but uh...
I also need to watch TTGL. Here's a hilarious news article about that ~~>> www.telegraph.co.uk/news/main.jhtml?xml=/news/2007/12/11/nflag111.xml

dude i'm gonna post more about me being awesome but i got fucking dinner

yeah, fucking dinner. eat it.


anyway brb double posting et cetera

[infieri]

oh gawd homework afk

[Chaos]

No.

>_>

I was bored one day, so I tried to do the dance. That... didn't end so well. It's still awesome to watch, even though I've seen it 30+ times. I have... 10 different versions of the song, too, so it never gets old xD

[infieri]

aldskjf;lsadkf remixes? Hot.
I hope that the remixes aren't abused though. Like Neon Genesis Evangelion and Fly Me to the Moon. OHGAWD /facepalm.

Humm. Well I totally just finished studying for the night. I still have to write a paper, but eh. BREAKTIMEPLS.

Ehhh. Life is okay.
Over the winter break I went to a retreat and was totally touched and bless. Omgcheezy? Yaino! But I've become a lot more in touch with my faith (omg I'm using some gay faggotry diction) and a lot happier because of that.
My religion surprisingly enough has shown me about how much I hate people. Like, wow, how disgusting it feels to be loved by people who don't love me for who I really am.

For instance;
Last Saturday I was hanging around with a bunch of my friends. More like one failing best friend that I've been trying to avoid the whole year (yet u no how 4givin i am so i hung out with her dis 1 time) and her cousin and her cousin's friend or something.

So we go to watch a movie. Not naming movies. And I mean, I can totally understand why people would like it, why people would find it so sweet but... Ugh. I don't know.
1) I thought that the main woman character was a total bitch. I hated her. After watching the first scene, I thought, "wow, I hope that this movie isn't about her, because I hate her so much."
2) I didn't cry. I love crying. I cry really easily. But I didn't cry in this movie. Wtf.

So after that, these "friends" were all, "OMG DAT WAS SOOOO GOOD OADMF;LSKJDF;SLD!!1 I LOVED THE MAIN CHARACTER I CRIED SO MUCH."

Is something wrong with me?

So we all decide to go movie hopping. You know. When you like. Watch another movie in the theaters WITHOUT BUYING ANOTHER TICKET WE'RE SO GOOD.
There's this one movie still in theaters. I've watched it before; it's one of my favorite movies now. Everyone questions me about it and asks what it's about, and I go, "It's one of my favorites, but I don't think you guys would like it."

They hated it. They thought it was boring. They didn't know why anyone would make it or watch it or like it.

Fuck you guys. Seriously, fuck you.

The best part of that?
They didn't even know what the moral of the story was.
It was, "Find someone who loves you for who you really are."

God damn.
Fuck them.


With that whole mindset, I've been ditching friends left to right.
Fuck, did I hang out with failures last year.




That was a really long story.
I still hate people.


That kind of stuff makes me so frustrated. a;dskj;salf. I hate people who expect love and can't even fulfill that one little quote.
It makes me want to stab brains.


Fuck, has that quote made me sever relationships that I knew would fail.

Seriously. I was still into e-dating, you know. Friend from Mardia, we both quit Maple Story in the summer, yeah, but we kept in touch through AIM.
Fuck did he hate me, yet I tried to get him to love me by trying to impress him.
He was the whole /b/tard, you know. So he had all of those expectations in girls, you know. He sincerely drove me to insanity and tears by him telling me that he liked cute girls and mature girls and not slutty girls.
I'm not any of those. I'm not cute; I'm ugly and brash and blunt. I'm not mature; I'm fucking fifteen years old and my hormones are a noose. I'm not prude; all I want is to feel loved.


God damn him.
I don't need him.
Lol, never signing onto MSN or AIM again!

It'll be for the better.



It makes me so mad, things like that.






And what? My other best friend?
So what? He liked me in the spring and I didn't return the feelings; He never told me about them anyway. And what? I told him that I liked him in the fall, and he didn't return the feelings? So now I get ignored by him?
And what the hell? Come wintertime, he wants to talk to me again. "I'm over my ex girlfriend that I was dating during the summer now. Who are you interested in?"
Certainly not you, fuck you.

Fuck you, you don't like me just because it's convenient.


Die.






And then my online best friend.
I know I like arrogant people. I know I like thick-headed people. And I understand if that's your personality.
But ffs. I tell you once that I don't agree with your opinion, and you pull the whole post-modernism shit on me, that everything is correct in some aspect? Fuck you, right is right and wrong is wrong and you're wrong, so admit it you douchebag.
I hope I spelled douchebag correctly. What injustice it would be otherwise.
So after I ignore you for a month because I told you that I was mad at you, you seriously text my cell phone every day? I don't want that shit. Get the hell out.







Fucking gawd damn.
Every
single
"best friend" I've found in the past two years
I have been slowly ripping apart and realizing that
none of them like me for who I am.


Who gives a shit if I'm funnier than you? You still hate the way I dress, so get the hell out.
Alright, maybe I'm ONE person that can actually tolerate you. There's a reason why there are so few of those.


Die.
Die.





Sorry Nick. You kind of got a full on hormonal blast. Like someone broke the faucet for teenage life and now it's splattering all over your shirt and face and you're going, "AUG;ALKSDJGAS IT BURNNS."
That kind of thing.

[infieri]

Oh, but at least religion has taught me to be nice to them anyway.

Damn you, God, for challenging me like this. THIS LOVE IS FOR YOU, NOW THAT I REALIZED THAT I DON'T NEED THEIR LOVE FOR MYSELF.

[infieri]

By the way.


FUCK YOU MONTH DELAY ON BRAWL. I HATE YOU.

[infieri]

HISTORY SUCKS AS WELL.
COPERNICUS, KISS MY ASS. OTHERWISE, KISS MY FIST, CUZ IT'S GOING RIGHT ROUND BABY, RIGHT ROUND.

[infieri]

By the way Nick,

I like people with personality.

But I sincerely don't think one can have personality without confidence.




Then again, I lost my dignity somewhere along the line of suicidal depression in eighth grade, so I'm not sure if I'm allowed to talk about this. Damn, do I wish I were more shy sometimes. Seriously.

[Chaos]

I dunno what you mean by abused, but... the original Hare Hare Yukai is usually the only one heard. But each of the main characters of the show has their own version. It's cute, really.

Eh, I don't care what you do to vent, as long as you get it out. 'Tis not good to hold it all in.

...Heh, that's funny, cause I usually keep all the stuff bottled in. I guess I finally just needed to vent.

Really, none of my friend like me for who I am. They like me for the front I put up so people don't see the real me. Whatever, I guess I'm going through all the trouble to do it, they might as well like it. All my friends are sadistic, racist bastards that any normal person would hate.

Speaking of movies, I wanna fucking see Rambo. I know it's gonna be retarded, but fuck Sylvester Stallone is made of so much win it's hard for me not to wanna go see it.

I'm a shy guy IRL. Honestly, I'm nothing like I am online in real life. I'm not gonna get into that, but nyeh.

Anyways, I was supposed to go to be an hour ago, so I'm gonna go do that >_> G'night.

[infieri]

Yeah? And I was supposed to get this paper done last Friday, but I got lucky and the teacher never picked it up.

Though I know he will tomorrow.

Fuck, okay, I'll go write and then comment later bye.

[infieri]

Each character has their own version? Aww, cutee.
Eh. Just an example- the anime Neon Genesis Evangelion has literally made a soundtrack devoted to the song Fly Me to the Moon. There are like, seventeen variations of it on there.

Oh gawd, Sylvester Stallone. LOL. Not in a bad way. I just saw the cardboard cutout for it and hugged Stallone's face.

I don't think anyone's really like how they are online.


Anyway, I'm not here to turn this into a "Let's talk about Nick's Life" thread (unless you want it to be), but I don't see why you find any sort of need to impress anyone anyway.
MMmblargahglw;el.

Fuck, I want some bubble tea or some shit.

[Chaos]

Nah, that's not what the topic was supposed to be about. As I said, I just needed to vent a little.

Yea, there were 9 CD's released, each for 9 characters of the show. They contain one or two songs sung by the character, and then they're own Hare Hare Yukai. It's pretty neat. Of course, the first 3 CD's only changed the main singer, but from 4 onwards, the lyrics and music began to change.

I'm going to see Rambo tomorrow. Fuck yea.

And wtf is bubble tea? Never heard of it

[infieri]

How the hell do you not know what bubble tea is? Oh, that's right, you're white. (:

No, just kidding. I actually didn't know what it was until I moved to Georgia three years ago >_> It's an asian sweet drink- It's basically milk tea (which is like, sweet tea, but... You know... Not watery... Because it has milk in it...) with flavoring and tapioca.

Fuck yeah Rambo.

You really do like Melancholy :] I'll watch some of it this weekend, I promise!



Man, I need to make a sculpture.

Right now my idea is that... I'm going to take an empty box of candy cigarettes (which look like real cigarette boxes, if you didn't know) and build something inside of it, but I haven't decided yet. I'll think of something.
Any ideas?

[Chaos]

Sorry I'm so white D:

Nah, just kiddin' >_>

Well... is there a certain theme you have to build it on? Or just anything? If you're going to be building it inside the box, it'd have to be kinda small, unless you have bigger boxes than normal (Or maybe I've only seen smaller boxes than normal? Oh well)

To be honest, I can't think of anything xD Sorryyyyyyy. I'm so bad at free form thinking. I can't think of an idea for something to do right on the spoit

[infieri]

That's okay.
Honestly, I've been thinking for months. >_>
And there's actually no restrictions. As long as it's three dimensional.


Aughh. D:


What's worse than being addicted to MMORPG's: Facebook.
I'm such a loser.

[Reaza]

*To start things off my hardrive crashed so I don't have a computer anymore. Going to start saving up for a laptop, but I wont be able to have enough money until like May*


*Also I adore Bubble Milk Tea, especially with the tapioca pearls at the bottom*



Ok now down to business. For the past few months I've felt rather lonely. I was on a different campus than my friends and my classes were all back to back to I never had the time to make new friends. Also I had so little money I couldn't go see my friends when I wanted too. Now this semester even though I'm back on the other campus my friends are never around when I am. Also instead of only having one of my friend's in Orlando now I have five starting this year. I try to make new friends but its never easy for me it seems. When people meet me I either come off as this really happy maybe even hyper person or as this rude arrogant, turn offish person. I know everyone see everyone in different ways but its hard when you either get really positive or awfully negative feedback on your personality. I am who I am and I wont pretend to be someone else just to gain friends but I just wished I could find some new friends on my own. I can be so outgoing but at the same time be really shy. You never know what you'll get from me.

*Ok just to clear something up, Danielle You are like so beautiful and you have such a great personality and a big heart. I hope your hunt for better friends goes well during this next year.*

*Nick I know I can't tell you to be yourself. High School can be tough but speaking from experience you may feel like you want to pretend to be what you aren't so people don't like you. Wait until you graduate though, you'll find you'll regret not being yourself. Don't waste you years being something you aren't because all you'll accomplish is living a lie where you actually have no friends because all the people you've been with your last years are actually people you can't stand being with. *

[infieri]

i don't know if i should go back to ms.



and reaza, you're beautiful <3
thanks.
things will get better
like hopefully my typing sometime!


i love youguys too much and i'll make a cooler post sometime soon

[Chaos]

Hmm... Brawl coulda came out today, but NO. They delayed it D:

I think it's funny that I come to this board pretty much only to vent and complain >_>

[Reaza]

Thats ok that all I do, that and comment on the people that come here to complain.

[infieri]

Hey guys

The weather was awesome today.

I hung out with my friends at some school event.

Alright!

[Chaos]

This topic is awesome. D:

I miss us all.

[Soapy]

I MISS YOU GUYS. I'M SORRY FOR ALL THE RETARDED SHIT I DID. I LOVE YOU ALL. I'M A DUDE. SORRY FOR MAKING YOUR PENIS FEEL FUNNY. MY LIFE IS ALL HAPPINESS AND JOY NOW. ILU. ILU.


..ILU. <3

[Chaos]

Oh my god.

Someone responded.

SOAPYYYYYYYYY <3

I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE A DUDE.

Actually, yes I do. I can no longer heart you without people assuming things. So pretend the above heart didn't happen.

BUT SOAPYYYYYYYYY

YOU RESPONDED. WE'RE NOT ALL DEAD AFTER ALL.

Actually, I'm partly responsible for this, considering I never take the initiative to talk to anyone.

OH MY GOD LOOK HOW EMO I WAS WHEN I POSTED THIS TOPIC.

I'm running out of things to say.

SOAPYYYYYYYYYY.

[Soapy]

DUUUUUUUDEEEE

ITS ALRIGHT. I <3 U NO HOMO.

Sorry for taking so long to respond again, I couldn't find the link I swear it's ungooglable too! (New word)

CHAAAAOOOSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.